SYNOPSIS

A cinematic essay on the chaotic experience of time, in which the filmmaker expresses her transformative experience of motherhood through intimate letters, still photographs of her homeland and dutch archival footage. I am born on the Wadden Sea dike. On my 14th birthday, I receive a camera with one roll of black-and-white film and wander through the meadows. Fifteen years later, I live in the city and make films. The prints of my very first roll of film are found in the house where I grew up; the negatives are lost. I see a landscape I miss. Back in the meadows, I give birth to two children within a year. Unprepared for my new role as a mother, I am constantly torn between exhilaration and exhaustion. Stagnation sets in. Days and nights become one. Time contracts and expands again; distorts. Days seem endless; months fly by. With my children, I wander through the meadows of my youth. I am never alone, yet I feel lonely. As the children grow, time becomes just a thing that slips through your fingers. I look at my photos and reflect on the years gone by. I see my mother in the distance and realize that she, too, is a mother. I look at the meadows and see a landscape I still miss. And I know: everything passes.

GÉNÉRIQUE

• Director

  Froukje Van Wengerden

• Production

  Frans Filius

• Referent

  Froukje Van Wengerden

• Sales

  Froukje Van Wengerden

• Sound designer

  Jacob Oostra

• Editing

  Nina Graafland

• Film score composer

  Stavros Markonis